My beautiful, messy, amazingly crazy life is His masterpiece and I am overwhelmingly thankful for it.
{BUT} Some days I just want to crawl into a closet and hide, or be like my husband and run into the restroom with the iPad for 30 minutes {I know what you're doing in there & it's not being "productive"}!
All it takes for the "run and hide" feeling to disappear is a sweet smile, a slobbery kiss, or the tender & enduring sound of my little peanut saying "mama"... those wonderful things light up my world and make the messes, the Cheerios on the floor, or dog food in his mouth, or the cottage cheese in our dogs hair disappear. All I can see then is him & I feel so blessed to have such a sweet little boy, such a supportive husband and such a wonderful little life.
There are days, hours, minutes and seconds that I feel I could completely lose my mind. That's part of being a wife, a mother... it's part of being human! Allow yourself to feel crazy, go a little nuts, let it out! It feels good! Life is too precious to waste a moment being someone that you're not. I proudly wear my messy ponytail and makeup-less face... my under eyes showing my lack of sleep... the wrinkles in my shirt showing that I probably found it on the floor & whatever it is on the shoulder of that shirt, please don't smell it, it's hard to say what it is {milk, food, boogie}.
It's easy to tell when I am going someplace, I'll actually wear something other than yoga pants; I feel so fancy when I don't have them on - how silly does that sound? Putting on jeans, a cute top, A DRESS ((oh my)) is such a treat to me... it's rare, but I do still like to feel pretty, like a woman & as hard as it is to admit, it's nice to just be "me" sometimes.. not just a "wife/mommy". I miss just being myself, by myself... selfish, I know.
Sometimes life gets messy, as I mentioned before about the cottage cheese, Cheerios and goodness knows what else is all over the place... I've decided that all of these things are easy to clean up, even if it's daily, one day I will miss having Cheerios on the floor, I'll miss reading the same book over & over again, I will miss "mama mama" with little hands reaching up at me.... babies grow up, often too quickly. I look at my beautiful little messy life & am thankful for every bit of it.
